Wednesday, February 14, 2018

AVN - Newest Year New Hip

After this blog post I'm going on vacation. My vacation will consist of renewed focus. I'm not going to talk about pain, surviving Sickle Cell or any of my past comments. After this blog post, I'm going to celebrate every new day, every moment of breath, every hour of life.

In a nut shell; going to surgeon, getting date, have surgery, recover and live.

This time, really live. 

Sunday, September 24, 2017

A New Day...Again


September 2017 was supposed to kickoff Sickle Cell Awareness Month by having the "1st Annual Sickle Cell Awareness Event at my ranch. At the time, we were also going to kick-off the birth of  Joneswood Foundation, an advocacy, educational and sickle cell awareness organization.

A forest fire ended all of those good intentions.

But what it could NOT destroy was my goal: the birth of Joneswood Foundation. There's still work to be done to advocate and educate the world about Sickle Cell Disease.

So, it is a new day for us at Joneswood Foundation. We will continue the vision and continue the cause: Sickle Cell Disease Advocacy, Education and Awareness.

Wednesday, July 5, 2017

A Do-Over - New Year New Hips

#NewYearNewHips

Infection can be a burden in more ways than one. Always a possibility, "one out of a thousand" as my surgeon told me, I hit the lottery. May 5 was not only Cinco De Mayo, it was the day I got the news. "We're going to have to go back in," after that everything was a blur.

My mind raced through the last month of my supposed recovery. How I got a second chance, how my guardian angel watched over me, and I woke up to the aftermath...recovery. A month after surgery, with a wound that would NOT close, now "they have to go back in", Lord help me!!!!

I never thought to blame anyone, I quickly moved into survival mode. Let's fix it mode.

Looking back now I see it was all Gods plan. I had some personality problems that needed fixing.
-  I was an over planner, no one could have planned for this.
-  I didn't want to ask for help, I was forced to ask people to help me.

God forced my self-reliance to God-reliance in every aspect of my life.

When I asked God to show me the purpose of this "new" challenge, He showed me myself. The pride, the arrogance, I needed an attitude adjustment. He took me through (still taking me) the Truth where He said, "Humble yourself before the mighty hand of God."

I'm still in training, nowhere near done, but I see the destination...heaven.

Thursday, April 27, 2017

Second Chance- New Year New Hips



My #NewYearNewHip

Having lost my mother-in-law two days before surgery both my husband and I were numb. We were going through the motions like robots, not feeling our loss, not feeling anything.

In the pre-op waiting room, the nurse who was preparing me turned the television on and I saw something, I don't remember what, but it reminded me of my mother-in-law and I started to cry. I was mourning my mother-in-law's loss right there in the pre-op nurses’ station.

For the first time, I assumed I saw God’s plan. I believed that my mother-in-law was assigned to me as a guardian angel to carry me emotionally through the surgery and to help remove any pain, any sorrow, any fear that I felt. I believed she was acting in behalf of God for me and I felt her presence. At that moment, I felt safe.

Seeing tears and hearing of my mother-in-law's loss, the nurse tried to comfort me. She offered a reassuring hug and her condolences for my loss. But this moment was between me and God. My mother-in-law loved the Lord and I knew she was in heaven. 

My daughter Christina came into the room afterword and offered comforting words. I told her that I felt my mother-in-law was looking over me, protecting me.  Christina knows my faith, so she didn’t doubt that I felt I would be OK.

Then, my husband Rick came back into the room and I told him what I thought. He, being still numb from losing his mom one day and being here with me the next, it didn't register to him. He didn’t know my hidden fear which was right under the surface of my strong fearless exterior. He didn't understand because it was between me and God, as well.

Everything after that was a blur.

I remember them wheeling to me into the operating room, I remember the anesthesiologist standing over me asking me to think of someplace beautiful to which my response was "heaven", because part of me did not want to wake-up. I did not want to survive and deal with the repercussions of the aftercare conditions. Part of me wanted to unplug and die.

But my anesthesiologist his response was no we're not going to heaven yet think of a beautiful place where you want to go and when I put my mind to that focus I inhaled once twice and then I went into darkness.

Waking up after surgery caught me by surprise. For one thing I couldn't believe that I went through with it. Previously, I was on auto-pilot preparing for surgery. I had so much to do to prepare, I intentionally focused on my list of things-to-do and did not allow myself to think about the aftermath.

I don't even remember the sound of the heart monitor beeping or oxygen tanks filling, which I've heard before when I’ve had surgeries. I just remember being awake and thinking to myself, ‘I survived.’

I remember thinking that my mother-in-law watched over it all. And, I remember thanking God for not hearing my prayers “to take me to heaven.”

I remember my husband waiting for me to wake-up and when I opened my eyes he was the first person I saw.

Thank You Jesus for a second chance.


Saturday, February 25, 2017

Can't Do Much But Laugh with Sickle Cell


New Year New Hips 

The days are getting longer as sunset is 1 minute sooner each day. My hip replacement surgery is not too far off because I also see new buds on trees signifying Spring is near. March is my daughter's birthday and my Niece, who loves love, wedding. Oh, how I love Spring.
Besides all this I'm trying to not focus too closely on the gory details of total hip replacement. I've turned my attention to my to-do lists. Borrow this, buy that, ask this person to help me do this, that and the other. So much to get settled.
         Now to explain the clown picture. 
My most recent doctors visit included a class I call, "What You Cannot Do After Hip Surgery". The instructor was a male nurse, Robert, who was an entertaining man who told stories about his elderly father who recently had hip replacement surgery. Robert explained rules that we all must follow; like don't bend past 90 degrees, don't cross your legs and don't point your toes toward each other. Of course, Robert's father managed to do them all. Robert also told us about a breathing machine that we must use to open our lungs after surgery to prevent pneumonia. Of course, his dad didn't want to use it. Robert was concerned about his dad's age and that pneumonia as a huge risk factor after surgery. Robert joked that he'd called his dad everyday to ask, "Are you doing your breathing exercises?" His dad's response was "HELL NO, that's stupid!" Thankfully, his dad recovered without any problems.
These funny stories put everyone at ease, considering the life altering surgery is scary business and the information is very important. I was happy Robert made us feel comfortable about the whole ordeal.

Next stop; my pre-operation appointment with my hematologist. I'm concerned about taking iron, which my surgeon suggested, and the risk of iron overload. Iron overload occurs when you get blood transfusions over many years. The excess iron doesn't get absorbed or eliminated from the body and could cause renal damage. I assume I'll get a blood transfusion (or two) during surgery, so taking iron may NOT be a good idea for me, considering I have gotten quite a few blood transfusions over the years.
I'm sure I'll get my questions answered. I'll continue to prepare for my next trip to the dentist, and then to my primarily care doctor, where I'll have my list of questions all ready for him
The saga continues.